With all our faults and failings...

Sometimes we feel completely unfit to present ourselves to God. This was especially true for me when I started to consider my return to the Catholic Church. It is not that I denied the faith; just that I stopped attending Mass. I still, at times, feel unfit.

And then... I remember how Jesus presented Himself to the scared Apostles right after His resurrection.

According to the Gospel of John He showed Himself twice to them: once when Thomas was not with the rest of the gang, then once again while he was there. (John 20: 19-29)

In both occasions Jesus did something that reminded me of when I went to visit my stepfather at the hospital where he was recovering from surgery. He wanted everyone that came to visit to see his wound. Why? Why is it that people that have undergone surgery want to show you the stitched-up wound?

Well Jesus did exactly the same! He showed them - twice - His pierced hands, feet and torso. He even asks Thomas to put his fingers on His wounds!!

It seems to me that this is a very human reaction. I imagine how proud someone would feel after going through the trials of surgery and coming out victorious on the other end.

In Jesus' case, I don't think it was a matter of pride but another way for Him to show how human He is. He indeed took on the human experience and, on our behalf, died in the Cross taking our sins with Him. 

Jesus, by coming back to us with His wounds is telling us - giving us permission - to present ourselves to Him with all our scars, wounds, and stains. He takes us and loves us just as we are.

So do not stay away because of how unfit you feel. What better way to return than presenting yourself to Him? Show Him your wounds and let Him reconcile you into Himself. You will then be nourished by His precious Blood and Body that heals every wound.

"A small step in the midst of great human limitations can be more pleasing to God than a life which outwardly appears in order and passes the day without confronting great difficulties. Everyone needs to be touched by the comfort and attraction of God's saving love, which is mysteriously at work in each person, above and beyond their faults and failings." (Gaudium Evangelii, 44, emphasis mine)

The Wake

King Offa - Image from The British Library: www.bl.uk

I wonder what the followers of Jesus were thinking about after He was buried. Holy Saturday is the day we wait. We wait because we know that the story did not end with His death; it marks the beginning of something new, or rather something old that was renewed.

It is a time to consider life not from the perspective of the tomb but from that of the observers; from the periphery rather than the center.

Think of the times when you were at a wake. There's lots of talk among friends and family of the deceased. Most of the talk revolves around his or her life; accomplishments, anecdotes, their impact on our lives and the lives of others.

Certainly there is also talk about what happens next - the future - and how we carry on. I suppose His disciples and apostles were no different in that regard. He was such an important figure in their lives that they committed their memories to writing the Gospels.

I too take the time to consider the events of my parish and the Church as I have experienced them. What comes to mind today is what I have been pondering since the beginning of Lent: how can we become more welcoming, inviting and vibrant in our faith? More importantly, what I am willing to do to in this regard?

Catholics Returning Home is perhaps the most important thing I can think of at this point in life. I know how scary and difficult we perceive the process of returning to be. I know because I've been there. I had to figure my way back on my own, and now that I've been back for a few years I want to offer help to others in similar situations.

I am always interested in learning about what keeps Catholics from re-engaging with their faith and Church, or what makes them go somewhere else. Here's an article I found in Our Sunday Visitor website OSV Newsweekly, "Three ways parishes can experience a revival of faith" by John Michael Talbot.

Your thoughts?